RaNdOm ThOuGhT..

Sometimes I wonder..

Is this really worth it..

Can I really withstand these current measures..

Unaware of the future and confused by the present..

I'm not reliant, or at least I don't want to be perceived as such..

Strong, independent women can do without it..

I raise my chin and hold my head to the sky and realize that I miss your breath on my neck..

My mama says I'm young and it's not for certain but it's been almost a year and a half..

Distant..

How I hate that word..

Closeness is what I want to feel..

I cannot and will not cry..

It won't change anything, plus I'm too arrogant for that..

I hope this doesn't sound harsh or irrelevant..

I want to retaliate and make you feel this regret..

I'm not familiar with this emotion..

Sorrow, no, emotionless is what I try to expose..

Distant..

How I hate that word..

I once was captivated and mesmerized..

Then the sun set and the day was over..

We spent countless hours together, but still get nowhere..

My brain is not photographic, which results in my constant questions..

My attitude sometimes turns negative, but..

I don't know what to feel anymore..

My hands are empty and unlaced with yours..

Distant..

How I hate that word..

There's only two things that keep me going..

The love Jesus has for me and the LOVE that I have for you!

Stay focused, positive and creative :)

-Kidd